Artist: Simon Pritchard. Painting: Bhagavan Da
I can’t remember what year it was. The Mountain Of Attention Sanctuary,
California. Beloved Adi Da Samraj was giving Darshan in His beautiful
yet simple house, The Manner of Flowers. Thirty or so of us at a time
would sit with Him just for about ten minutes in His Darshan Hall,
gazing at His Sublime Bodily human Form and then we would be signalled
to get up and move on, and other devotees woud take our place.
He was all dressed in orange. An orange shawl covering His head. He was
completely Still. He was like a statue. Like a corpse. Unmoving. As
though dead. I sat and contemplated His Form. I felt in awe. My heart
felt closed. But that was not my concern. My heart is His Business.
My heart does not belong to me anymore. It is His. I had proved to
myself a million times that I had no ability to open my heart, let alone
keep it open through my own effort. I had proven to myself a million
times that I was failed at love and loving, so I sat there unconcerned,
relaxed, not minding the grip of the contraction around my feeling
heart, but gazing on His Body, contemplating His Divine bodily human
Form. His exquisite Beauty. Shiva. Divine Ash. No ordinary human being,
that was clear. He is gone. There is Only The Divine Presence. Nothing
left but the ash. Dressed in orange, the orange of renunciation. Silent.
Who else have I ever seen who looks like this? Noone. Extraordinary.
Beyond human comprehension.
I walk outside into the brightness of the day, and then I notice. My
mind has gone. There are no thoughts. He has taken my mind away. It did
not matter that I did not seem to be feeling anything, that my mind was
chattering when I sat in front of Him. I gave Him my attention and He
does the rest.
There is no mind, He cancelled my mind, for now He just erased it off
the face of the earth, just blank. It is His Transmission. I go to the
retreat quarters . I lie down on the bed. For about an hour I don’t want
to move. I am just enjoying this completely unusual experience of no
mind, no thoughts, no thinking, no dilemma, just delicious peace,
complete and utter peace.
A sublime Stillness. He erased my mind. That is how Powerful He Is. He
is the God-Man. He is my Guru. I am in love with Him. No being can give
me what He Gives me. Happiness. Peace. No mind. Death. Life. Love.
Freedom. Joy. He is for Everyone, meditating everyone, Awakening all
beings to The Love-Bliss Consciousness That He Is, the True Nature of
each and every being, of each and every apparent ‘one’.
What an opportunity. An opportunity not to be missed. Always New. Always
Fresh. Each moment is the same moment of opportunity to contemplate His
bodily human Form, His Spiritual Presence and His Very and Inherently
Perfect State and so be liberated by Grace. What a Wonder He is! How
fortunate we are to be born in the time of His bodily human incarnation
on earth. The Promised God-Man Is Here.